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Have you ever felt like you were stuck in a relationship that you're not sure is right? ...well that's kinda what I'm feeling now. I mean, I like the idea that I'm in a serious relationship with someone I love and could even marry..but sometimes I still wish I was single. I'm only eighteen and I feel like my life is already set in stone. I've made so many decisions in the past few years that I'm not proud of...I never pictured my life to be the way it is now. It's not like my life is awful. I just didn't expect to be at community college, in a serious relationship, and having quit my 1st job. I know that there are reasons for all of those, that there's a reason for everything, I guess I'm just wondering if I'm really actually happy...

I think everyone definitely has their own ways of dealing with stress.. one of my ways is probably through blogging.
Anyways, I've had several sources of stress this week. First of all, work. Being a cashier is damn hard! Especially in the beginning. Second, my back pain is back. I hurt my back pretty badly about two years ago and ever since then, I've had chronic pain on and off. Standing around and being stressed at work really haven't helped either. Unfortunately though, the weather is so bad here that I really don't want to drive 20 minutes to go to the chiropractor today. So I'm waiting until next week. And then there's school - which really actually isn't that bad so far...so hopefully it'll stay that way!

I really really hate the cold weather. Especially today. Because I woke up this morning to find no running water in the bathroom - yep, pipes froze again. So now, I'm back at my parent's house trying to keep busy until C picks me up later so we can head home and hopefully have running water. At least I got to steal the new Stephanie Plum book - Plum Lucky[by Janet Evanovich] from my mom.
And of course, this is the worst week for us to have no water, because I'm going to be insanely busy - working 4 four days and school 2 days. Great. I hate winter.

"You live in a world of black and white, and I see pieces of gray. That's the difference between you & me. That's what made me fall in love with you & that's what's tearing us apart."
-Dawson's Creek

...and the story of my life.